It’s reli awkward for me 2 feel kinda down & being pessimistic whole day long . It’s kind of like an emotional breakdown . Feel like I’m hopelessly in anything I do . That was where I started to doubt and doubt & redoubt my self , my capabilities , my directions , my path & my inner feelings . It must due to the exhaustion of my body & mind . I went to Slippery Senoritas last night for eve’s countdown with my friends . Boozing made me feel kinda relief I must admit as I’ve been depressed for the past few days . I was enjoying myself by taking vodka , boozes like Heineken & Tiger & dance but I’m disappointed cuz there are hardly any hot chicks as far as I observed . I made few new frens from China , Thailand & Korea & danced . I even danced with few chicks from Thailand & Korea and we became frens subsequently . I reached my hostel around 4 sth in the morning & slept at 5 . Thx to my room mate’s shitty 24/7 turned on radio , I woke up by 7 sth in the a.m. & I felt SO FUCKED UP as that was not my own will . GOD DAMN IT!! I felt like I’m a zombie today , so immobilized … I’m drowned in dizziness from sun rise to sun set , my life is just seems so imbalanced today . Everything turned 180 degrees up side down . I went to gurney & batu ferringhi by bike cuz I feel like getting my self some air . I received a text fr my some1 saying she is still in the mood of shopping . Honestly , that freak the hell outta me as she already been there (queensbay) ever since 2 pm ? or mayb 3pm? But , by knowing she is happy & enjoying what she is doing , I feel so glad , so satisfied …
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